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"I'm just giving you a hard time"

-managing director to analyst across me

tortoise and the hare

Father,

just like You told me today,

let me not think about how far I have to go,

how others seem ahead of me,

or how painful it would be if I fail--


no matter how slow it would be,

always be there for me

to take that next step.

thee

on my mind,

always.

little ones at work

apparently today was "bring your child to work" day.

my managing director:

awwwwwwwwww


another thing I learned: parents will let their kids miss school for these days.

have strength

made the tired face into a smile

why

am I still at work

heights

sometime during junior year,

right around finals,

I was in the grad library, studying for exams.

later in the night, I noticed that someone wrote this on the side of the table:



heights by great men reached and kept

were not obtained by sudden flight

but, while their companions slept,

they were toiling upward in the night.



later found this to be an excerpt from Henry Wadsworth Longfellow.

I remember this giving me that extra motivation for the rest of the night,

and strengthened my quite twisted justification that it's okay to give up sleeping.

"save me from myself"

suddenly remembered this song,

really liked the guitar background.

not a big fan of her songs,

but this, along with "beautiful", is an exception

I am not worthy,

but I will continue to pray

because I know You're hearing them all.


also,

grant me Your strength,

Your courage,

Your wisdom,

Your patience,

Your diligence,

and above all,

Your love.

rooftop cabin

noticed that there was a cabin-like house on the roof of a building near my house.

living in a cabin in in the middle of a forest of buildings..

the clock game (3)

either I'm starting to look at the clock more often than before,

or my timing at looking at the time is getting better.

all I can do

sometimes,

all I can do is pray.



I will do all I can.

conversation

talking to my brother,

we got to the topic of how our family interacted when we were all together.

we both agreed that it was during dinner.


I miss the conversations I had with dad during dinner--

with conversation topics that normally don't come up.


like talking about the social times in korea back in dad's times

as opposed to

just "how was work today."

"walk a little slower daddy"

"walk a little slower, daddy"
said a child so small,
"I'm following in your footsteps
and I don't want to fall.

sometimes your steps are very fast,
sometimes they're hard to see;
so walk a little slower, daddy,
for you are leading me.

someday when I'm all grown up,
you're what I want to be;
then I will have a little child
who'll want to follow me.

and I would want to lead just right,
and know that I was true,
so walk a little slower, daddy,
for I must follow you."

spontaneity

it doesn't happen all the time,

but one of the best feelings is when

someone suggests we do something unplanned,

and my mind, 

in agreement,

goes "heck, why not, go for it."

hudson river

with church buddies,

sitting down and just talking.

me

let it never be about me,

but for You and the ones I love.

psalm 59

today's morning service message:

1 Deliver me from my enemies, O God;
   be my fortress against those who are attacking me.
2 Deliver me from evildoers
   and save me from those who are after my blood.

 3 See how they lie in wait for me!
   Fierce men conspire against me
   for no offense or sin of mine, LORD.
4 I have done no wrong, yet they are ready to attack me.
   Arise to help me; look on my plight!
5 You, LORD God Almighty,
   you who are the God of Israel,
rouse yourself to punish all the nations;
   show no mercy to wicked traitors.[c]

 6 They return at evening,
   snarling like dogs,
   and prowl about the city.
7 See what they spew from their mouths—
   the words from their lips are sharp as swords,
   and they think, “Who can hear us?”
8 But you laugh at them, LORD;
   you scoff at all those nations.

 9 You are my strength, I watch for you;
   you, God, are my fortress,
 10 my God on whom I can rely.

   God will go before me
   and will let me gloat over those who slander me.
11 But do not kill them, Lord our shield,[d]
   or my people will forget.
In your might uproot them
   and bring them down.
12 For the sins of their mouths,
   for the words of their lips,
   let them be caught in their pride.
For the curses and lies they utter,
 13 consume them in your wrath,
   consume them till they are no more.
Then it will be known to the ends of the earth
   that God rules over Jacob.

 14 They return at evening,
   snarling like dogs,
   and prowl about the city.
15 They wander about for food
   and howl if not satisfied.
16 But I will sing of your strength,
   in the morning I will sing of your love;
for you are my fortress,
   my refuge in times of trouble.

 17 You are my strength, I sing praise to you;
   you, God, are my fortress,
   my God on whom I can rely.

red bull

I somehow managed to drink only about 4 cans of red bull during my 4 years in college,

but now,

it's becoming a tradition for me to chug a can of red bull every friday morning.

brown shoes

finally got myself a pair of brown shoes

bruno magli

age

was talking to my brother yesterday,

and it suddenly hit me that

my brother's age (in Korean count) is 27..

when did we get this old? 

sleep

I keep thinking that I'm not getting enough sleep,

but if I think about it,

I've been doing this under-5-hour sleep business since college;

seeing senior project code fail after waiting hours for synthesis... 

ah the times,

"jfwifqsklfjalksdjasd" back then, priceless now.

in a time not of my own

how dare I forget this,

that God always worked in His own time,

and not on my own.


God will make it happen if it is His will.

full moon on a starless night

though I cannot see stars during a moonless night here,

the moon shines just as bright as anywhere else here.

as much as I loved Saipan and Ann Arbor for all the people I met,

the same goes for New York.

stars on a moonless night

called home,

mom wasn't around but my little cousin was.

asked him about his high school life,

how he enjoyed the times,

then I started remembering what I did in that little island.


the northern part of the island is sparsely inhabited.

it contains most of the tourist destinations,

mainly battlegrounds of world war 2.

this area has no human lights at night.

we would at times go to a cliff,

called banzai cliff for the japanese soldiers who preferred the sea than surrender,

at night, of course not telling the parents that we're going there.


I wasn't able to go there as often as the others,

but I do remember this one night,

when there was no moon.


there were no lights around us,

no moon to shine the area,

but still all was bright.


I was able to see the ocean below the cliff,

the monuments for the dead,

and when I raise my head up,

a sea of diamonds.


gotta go back there again.

childhood goldmine

if I saw this when I was little,

I would have thrown myself on the ground and not get up until I get one..

ubuntu

"I am what I am because of who we all are"

read one of those short, inspiring stories in the internet regarding this,

and it ended with

"how can one of us be happy if everyone else is sad?"


to gain happiness from seeing the happiness in others,

and one way to do this is to live a life of service.