until now,
I used to think that giving all credit to God and putting God above everything else were one and the same..
guess I didn't even think about separating them.
this weekend, I had the sudden realization that
lately,
while I did acknowledge that it was God Who has worked for me,
I had put certain things above Him.
and then I started remembering,
other times when I had asked God for certain things,
professing that I believe that it is not I but He who will be the One Who makes it happen,
yet putting that thing above Him in importance.
these never came to fruit.
but what I did receive from Him,
I can definitely remember that it was when I told Him,
"You know what, I got You, so it's fine."
right now, I might think that some things need so much attention
that it needs more attention than God--unintentionally, but still happening.
only when I throw that down will God give it to me.
quick sum-up analogy:
a son wants a toy,
if he receives it, he knows it's from Dad--
won't say he got it by himself--
but if Dad knows that he might probably skip chores to play with toy,
He won't buy it for him.
only when the son confirms and promises to Dad that chores come first,
will Dad think positively about giving His son what he desires.
pretty straightforward in this context.
alright God,
help me put these things under You and under Your control.
because I do want, but only with all Your blessings.
